Im Goin Crazy- Crazie Crazy

Sat, 01 Jan 2005 19:00:00 GMT

Yea so today is a beging of a new year. so ima make this entry different

let me start off by saying HAPPY 2oo5
In 2oo4 it hada lot of good n bad n horriable times. It changed my life

I went threw a few relationships that i regret being in especially with names i am not mentioning. lets say they fuked me over. I just wanna NOT here there name at all this year in 2oo5 and as for long as i live. But thanks for my makin months in that year a living hell for me...

Also in october i started goin out wit chris the love of my life.... I love him soooooooo much. there is nothing that can break us apart. hes my life. my everything. i cant wait for all the good things to happen. this is gone to be the best year of my life i can see it now. its just gona be me n him. were gona get our own place and everything. :). Chris I love you so much. u changed my life around ever since i met you. ill always be ur wifey. Hugz n kizzez

Also In june of 2oo4 i graduated Highschool. it was one of the other most memorable times of my life. but the 1 thing i do regret is dropping out of college, but this year ima go back and not drop out ima do something wit my life. i am gonna go be that nurse i wanna be.

Also in septeber of 2oo4 i got a job at wawa which is really easy but im thinkin about finding a new 1 because i dont like the hours that i work but dont get me wrong i like tha people that i work with. i just dont like the hours i want a normal 7am to 3pm job and i dont work every weekend. i mean some weekends will be kewl here and there.

It was also a sad year at times in july i lost my cuzin to some pric assholes who killed him outside of the bar in my old neighboorhood. RIP CUZ CHRIS. I miss you 7-25-04 :*(

I also moved in the apartment wit the family i hate it here i just want to move out its so boring and yet it feels like im a million miles away from my babi. but its only like a 20 min bus ride

im also gona stop supporting septa and go and get my perment ima go this week to go get it.so then i can drive to see my babi. O I WOULD LOVE THAT it would also save me alot of money and what i spend on septa i could use it on gas

now for 2oo5 i want it too work out like this
~ Find a reasonable houred job
~go back to school
~move with my babi
~get my license and a car
~And JUST WANT IT TO BE PREFECT

PS. this is gone to be the last entry for this name. since its 2005 i wanna start off fresh for the new year and leave all the 2oo4 memories behind. Farwell to this name. ill edit this and put the new name in when i make the name

:)

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 05:59:22 GMT

This was the best christmas I ever HAD. because i got to spend it with my babi. he got me a RING. this heart shaped necklace and a pocketbook and body spray. OMG it made me start to cry. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. I would seriously be lost with out him.

i also got alot of other presents

~footsie pajamas

~loations

~stuffed animal

~socks

~scooby

~shrek 2

~shrek pj pants

~money

~ETC,,,,

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 03:25:48 GMT

Life Suxz

the end

"Welcome To My Life"

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Fuk everything

More time

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 07:43:50 GMT

11 days until christmas. o boy i still gotta lotta christmas shoppin to do with only 2 PAYCHECKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i still gotta get my mom....dad...a polyana for work...lousie at work...eve..and some more stuff for my brother.

well i worked all weekend. what fun and i didnt get to see my baby until today.work was beat nuttin intresting really happened besides sunday night i got my finger pinched in the cigg case OUCH WAT A BITCH. i dont even see the sense of having doors on them neways if u keep on going into them to get ciggs out. well never kno/ i noticed i always use my debit card at wawa. AHHHHHHHHHH i guess thats what i get for workin there. come feb im gona be gettin about 9.00 an hour. HOW SWEET IS THAT and next week ima be gettin more hours

i got to see my babi tonight i got there around 815 cuz i stopped at wawa 1st to get a drink n he wanted a snickers n a pepsi. we watched the titans cheifs game were cheifs killed the titans, (( i should burn that jersey)) they seriously sux this year. and so i got home at like 130 dis mornin. I LOVE CHRIS SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. and its 2 months 3 days after christmas.

i was lookin at my caller id to see who called and fukin dickface called and god knows what he wanted when we no longer talk to each other. fukin prick i fukin hate you dont talk to me ne fukin more. ur such a fukin dickhead. that always likes to start shyt. and dont go and say i act black.

i am who i am. and if u dont like it O FUKIN WELL. no one will ever be able to change me. Dont be sayin shyt to bring me down. or to even piss me off. cuz ull know how i am when someone pisses me off. SO DONT TALK SHYT IF U WANNA TALK SHYT SAY IT TO MY FACE SO WE COULD HANDLE IT. JUST DONT SAY SHYT BEHINDF MY FUKIN BACK. what will it take for u fukin idiots to understand

later on today i gotta do more packin because there is only 8 more days until i move out. and that is next wednesday. AHHHHHHH and we dont even got most of the house packed up. what the hell is we waiting for. so it looks like im doin some major packin tommorow when i wake up

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

My ONLY WISH DIS YEAR

Last night I took a walk in the snow.
Couples holding hands, places to go
Seems like everyone but me is in love.

Santa can you hear me
I signed my letter that I sealed with a kiss
I sent it off
It just said this
I know exactly what I want this year.
Santa can you hear me.
I want my baby (baby, yeah)
I want someone to love me someone to hold me.
Maybe (maybe, maybe maybe.) he'll be all my own in a big red bow

Santa can you hear me?
I have been so good this year and all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want, just for me underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here.
Santa thats my only wish this year.
oohhh ohh yeah
Christmas Eve I just can't sleep
Would I be wrong for taking a peek?
Cause I heard that your coming to town

Santa can you hear me? (yea yeah)
Really hope that your on your way
With something special for me in your sleigh
Ohh please make my wish come true
Santa can you hear me
I want my baby (baby)
I want someone to love me someone to hold me
Maybe (maybe maybe) we'll be all the love under the mistletoe

Santa can you hear me
I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here santa thats my only wish this year
I hope my letter reaches you in time
Bring me love can call all mine
(yeah yeah) cause I have been so good this year.

Can't be alone under the mistletoe
He's all want and a big red bow
Santa can you hear me (hear me?)
I have been so good this year
And all i want is one thing
Tell me my true love is near
He's all I want. just for me
Underneath my christmas tree
I'll be waiting here (ohh yeah) santa thats my only wish this year
Oh santa can u hear me? oh santa
Well hes all I want just for me underneath my Christmas tree
Oh I'll be waiting here
Santa thats my only wish this year.

I GOT MY ONLY WISH THIS YEAR.

I LOVE YOU CHRISTOPHER MCDONALD!!

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 19:48:14 GMT

this entry is a lil bit different.

Well i been goin through alot right now with this movin shyt. yea its really stressfull and 11 more days before i gotta give up my house key to the damn chinese people.

Ima miss this neighboor hood in someways. for the simple fact of listed below.

~i been livin in the OC since i was 6 years old

~I have many friends in the OC *Vicki my hommie* (ull haveta come to the apartment) and theres Angel,steph,annie,kimmy,mericka and everyone else to many to name

~and so on

pretty much the OC is my grounds and ima miss it but i sure will be back to visit. im even gonna miss frankford also. even though thats brings bck bad memories from when my cuzin was killed right there.

but its gona sux because im movin to an apartment 5 mins from franklin mills. and like i hate everyone up that way cuz there so damn preppy and ur gona have a ghetto chick like me livin up there. O HOW WONDERFUL this is gona be. everything is gona be so different. i never lived ina apartment b4. ahhhhhhhhhh the change ill just have ta get used to it. but the oc will always be my grounds until the day i die. awell im done i gotta do more packin.

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P.S its back to work tonight. i loved my week and a 1/2 off spendin every night with my babi. now i gotta deal with these drunk ass motherfukas lolz. O how i wanna find a new job. because im tired of workin the 1145-7 shift and im only gettin 3 days a week what kinda shyt is that. shyt pisses me off. i wanna find a job were i can work from like 7am to 3pm. then have the whole night to my self n spend it with my love.

on the other hand me findin an apartment is crazy. cuz like me n him want a nice one but were the rent is cheap. and there like all far away and we dont wanna go to frankford nor do we wanna go to kensington nor do we wanna go to onley we wanna be around here someweres. i kno we will find something soon we just gotta keep saving our monies.

well im out -toodles-

- I LOVE YOU CHRIS-

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wow

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 05:12:25 GMT

its cold. its 12am,

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm im tired

i just got off the phone wit my babi

i havent written in here in like ever prolly cuz im never home nemore cuz im with my babi all the time and online is so beat and theres nuttin to do on here ne mores. so im only gona update when something good happens.

me n chris r gettin our own place as soon as we get enough money which will be soon. i gotta start saving again christmas shoppin makes u sooooooooooooo broked :(. so hopefully in like 3 months or so i should have enough money again but then im hopin by feburaray

I LOVE YOU CHRIS

1 Month 2 weeks

10-29-04

song of the day by jkwon: you and me

I mean, I just need to talk to you right now
Yeah,,yeah, where I begin
Right, yeah, yeah

Sunny day, age 14
When I first saw you, you was lickin a Ice cream
Knew you had freak in ya blood from the get go
Yo' you showed a nigga some love from the get go
Cute too, so you ain't get caught in the image
Friends got in I should'nt of tossed out our business
So religious, yeah
In other words, sorry could'nt explain the way I was feelin'
Back to the story
Member when we used to hit concerts
Mainly legit and nories
Tryin to get on that was exciting for me
And exciting for you that was something to see
Plus you had ass and I loved that
Back in this I was ya boyfriend I rubbed that
Tryin to get on, girl I accheived that
Everybody hands out from you I recieved that

Don't need no ice or no Bentley
I just wanna have you here wit me
I'm their for you, always be true
It's just you and me, you and me
You don't have to go doubble platinum
I'll be their and I'm always goin' back em'
I'm their for you, always be true
It's just you and me you and me

I can't promise that
So I know just because
How you said them words it had to be love
Basically it had to be us
Against the world not giving 2 fucks
But know soon as shit picked up
I start actin different so you switched up
I don't blame you, but I blame us
Kept shit smooth even when it got rough
But, I don't see that no more
Got one half our wait hope he sore
What the fuck is hopin' for
When I can't be the man I used to be no more
No time, we don't go out to eat no more
Barley home, you don't see me before you sleep no more
You love me, and I know you ain't playin
Cuz the first week gone, you callin' me sayin'

Don't need no ice or no Bentley
I just wanna have you here wit me
I'm their for you, always be true
It's just you and me, you and me
You don't have to go doubble platinum
I'll be their and I'm always goin' back em'
I'm their for you, always be true
It's just you and me you and me

I can't promise that
Business got good, but we got bad
Money got happy, but we got sad
But in the mist we had a daughter
Evern though we floatin' clear like ocean water
Came home 2 bags of findy
It was gone that started to offend me
Child support hit, that really offend me
Puffy was right it's all about the benjy's
Bitter now cuz the loves still in me
In my boxers on couch, sippin' Remy
Thinkin' that she need to be killed like Kennedy
Then I listin to I got the remedy
After all I still give you what you need, cuz we got a daughter to feed
Though you supposed to be here at least you sold me that
Why the fuck did I listen when you told me that, stupid

Don't need no ice or no Bentley
I just wanna have you here wit me
I'm their for you, always be true
It's just you and me, you and me
You don't have to go doubble platinum
I'll be their and I'm always goin' back em'
I'm their for you, always be true
It's just you and me you and me

You know, you feal my story
Write me or something ya know what I'm sayin
Or I'll be in a town near you or, or
Your town or whatever ya know
Come see me and come tell me that ya know
It's been a long time traveling
Though you was supposed to be here
So uh, ya family can't say I'm wrong

me n my boo

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 07:56:08 GMT

happy

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 07:42:17 GMT

Tonight was one of the best nights of my life. My babi came over and we watched dawn of the dead n scream 2 it just felt so right cuddlin up on the sofa together. I love him so much. Mom -n- Dad also like him him ;). Life just cant get no better so then around 140am me n dad took him home. AHHH i miss him already. But ill get to see him later on today. He even wore the lakers jersey i got him the other day. MAN he's so cute. He is my life.

Well its time for me to go to sleep im beat.

I love you Chris.

why i love you ((lyrics))

by B2K

[Vesre 1:]
From day one you and I've been friends.
Hangin out, havin fun, chillin.
Now I know at times I got crazy, silly ways and actin shady.
You peep things in me that noone sees.
You hold it down fo shizzy.
Now I have friends I thought were true but noone more true than you.
So what am I gonna do.
It took a while for me to see how special you treated me

[Chorus:]
Maybe thats the reason why I love you.
You're my heart girl.
And wit all the crazy things that I do, you're still here girl.
Noone else can meka me feel like you do.
You've shared my world.
Baby thats the reason why I love you.

[Verse 2:]
No other girl is quite like you.
And noone has my back like you do.
Girl you're one of a kind and you blow my mind.
And I'm glad to say you're mine.
Girl you're the one that changed me from a boy into a man.

[Chorus:]
Maybe thats the reason why I love you.
You're my heart girl.
And wit all the crazy things that I do, you're still here girl.
Noone else can make me feel like you do.
You've shared my world.
Baby thats the reason why I love you.

It took a while for me to see how special you treated me.
Maybe thats the reason why I love you.
You're my heart girl.
And wit all the crazy things that I do, you're still here girl.
Noone else can make me feel like you do.
You've shared my world.
Baby thats the reason why I love you.

Maybe thats the reason why I love you.
You're my heart girl.
And wit all the crazy things that I do, you're still here girl.
Noone else can make me feel like you do.
You've shared my world.
Baby thats the reason why I love you.

I Love You, maybe thats the reason why I love you.

what a night / mornin

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 22:55:36 GMT

Well last night i was in the er with my babi for 6 hours 7pm to 1am then i hada go to work and work 12 hours.

i was about to kill da docter for treating us like shyt.

Meg -n- chris

im never workin 1am *technically* 1145pm to 1130am

im out i gottta headache n i wana go see my babi

PS. JAY GOT FIRED HAHA WHAT A DUMBASS

> DATS WHAT U GET LOSER

sickness

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 05:44:26 GMT

Soo i called outta work tonight and got will to cover for me

Im still sick its gettin worser...

now whenever i caugh i get pains in my ribs and back,

now both of my ears hurt, i still cant stop sneezing and my headache is gettin worser. :(

i really hate bein sick now i can just imagin what this winter has instore for me.

its gone to sux even more cuz i gotta make the effort n go to work tommorow from 4-midnight, and i kno workin is gona make it more worser then i already am. :(

i miss chris so much. but ill get to see him on monday for our 1month. :)

i hope he is alright and everything goes good for him at the docters

well im out im goin to sleep b4 my whole body collapses.

I love chris always and forever

weather

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 05:11:33 GMT

I hate this weather im sick as shyt

I miss my baby i havent seen him since wednesday

he is sick also

im out

1 month on monday

I love you babi

hehe

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 19:17:41 GMT

3 weeks yesterday.........i love you babi

Meg -n- Chris
I was making a list
I was checking it twice
In the middle of this
I got tears in my eyes
For in my wishful heart
There was one simple truth
The only gift I wanted WAS YOU

well i been great couldnt been better.......... i love my babi so much. last night was 3 weeks for us a month on the 29 and were stronger then ever, last night we watched the east sidaz with snoop dogg it was an okay move. i might go and see him today but then again i got work tonight so i dunno i wanna i might...

the house thing is stressing....we have a potential house its in bristol by the shoppin center. the house has a pool and a hot tub. so ill find out tonight what has to be said when my dad gets in from work

well im out,. im goin to chill in my room n talk to my babi

Auto response from D****87:

Chris -n- Meg

10-29-04

Always and forever

i LOVE you babi

Life cant get ne better

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 16:17:26 GMT

Life cant get ne better then this.

i got a good job
I got a wonderful bf
im gona go back to school in januaray

I cant wait until we get our place together..... its gona be the best time of my life. just being with you 24/7/365. ur my life...my heart..in my dreams....ur the reason i wake up every morning. these been the best 3 weeks of my life so far and there getting better n better each and everyday. ur the reason i am still breathing. i dunno what i would do without you in my life. you changed it all around and made me realize alot of things. And last night when i said i wanna be ur wifey i was being serious.i cant wait till we get married babi...and start a family. I never wanna loose you. u mean the world to me and so much more. at nights i cant sleep because all i do is think about you n i cry them happy tears. our talks on the phone mean so much to me.....And the days i cant see you i begin to cry because i just miss you sooooo much i cant wait till christmas time babi... Monday was a great day just being in his arms and watching the games and playing around.......hehe he found a new spot on me and i aint telling what it is its mines n his little serect.

Chris I love you today tommorow forever

When i fell in love with you that very day i knew it was true. The love i found in you i knew i never wanted to lose. You mean far more den any words can say i wish i knew exactly why i feel this way my love for u grows stronger everyday . i hate the times wen u r away. when we talk i hate to say goodbye i would do nething for you to show my love is tru i feel lucky to have someone like u my love for u will never die this i kno is tru becuz my place in life is right beside you

I love you Chris

Your wifey forever

10-29-04

im out leave one

:)

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 21:34:45 GMT

I am in love

                                 Nothing is promised to me and you
                                    So why will we let this thing go
                                   Baby I promise that I'll stay true
                                    Don't let nobody say it ain't so
                                          And baby I promise
                                       That I will never leave
                                That everything will be alright, I
                                  I promise these things to you
                                          Girl just believe
                                             I promise

                               When I think of all the times I said
                                 That I will see you another day
                           Baby nothing's gonna change, yes it is
                                  Said you mean the world to me
                              And babygirl I keep you first, yeah
                          Cause that's the kind of love you deserve
                      And to know I got a love if you need a love, yeah

                   [2] - If you need a love, I got the love that you need
                             Ain't no way they can take that from me
                        And I pray to God that one day they will see

                              Nothing is promised to me and you
                                    So why will we let this thing go
                                   Baby I promise that I'll stay true
                                    Don't let nobody say it ain't so
                                          And baby I promise
                                       That I will never leave
                                That everything will be alright, I
                                  I promise these things to you
                                          Girl just believe
                                             I promise

                            [3] - You're the only I want in my life
                             And I promise everything is alright babe
                                You're the only I want in my life

I promise, promise, promise u baby

Meg -n- Chris

Together 4ever

2 hearts have joined as one

10-29-04

I love chris

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 18:54:08 GMT

CHRISTOPHER -N- MEGAN

<3 TOGETHER FOREVER<3

-10-29-04-

Im lovin life right now all because of that one special person. *chris*. he is my life and he treats me like no other. You can tell its love. His soft passionate kisses makes me feel like im in heaven, his hugs lets me kno i am safe because they are o so tight. everything is just so pefect and when we look in each others eyes u kno its true love... its something about him but i dunno wat it is.......i will find out soon...its a feeling i never had before.....he gives me butterflys.......when its cold he hold me close and when im sad he gets sad all cuz im sad and when i cry he wipes all my tears away..he is da love of my life and im never gona let him go.....

Were gona be together|today|tommorow|
Scratch dat| were gona be together forever
Chris: I love you babi

*-;-* Together Forever
       *-;-* Forever We'll Be
              *-;-* Wrapped In Your Arms
                     *-;-* Is Where I Wanna Be
                           *-;-* From Now Until The Day I Die
                                 *-;-* I Hope We Never Have To Say Goodbye

before i met you i never knew what it was like

to look at someone and smile for

l[ n O . r e a s O n ]l

ii wanna be the giirL tO Lite ya bLuntZ cOunt ya 'mOney

hOLd ya KeyZ' Nd be the giirL yOu Say

|.. yeah sHe RiideZ wiiTh Me ..|

**I will cross da ocean 4 u **i will bring u da moon **i will be ur hero ur strenght nething u need**

Just another day

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 04:52:31 GMT

Its just the the same thing just another day

Well today i got woken up at 530 am by my bitchy mother because i "supposly typed my brothers project all wrong.. i did all the paragraphs together instead of each paragraph on a seperate page and didnt type an intro..........luckly i saved it all.,., cuz if it wasnt saved i wasnt gona retype it all so then i took some drosey medicane when i was done so i could go back to sleep... it worked but i was up 10am when i fell back to sleep at 6am...

Another thing that is bothering me is peoples poltical fight...yeah just face it kerry forfeited which made me mad that he let bush be president again...but shyt happens deal with the fact thhat we have to live in missery for another 4 years..

I miss my babyboy i havent seen him since wednesday. :-( but ill get to see him tommorow. i love him so much.... i dunno what i would do without him. i actually like how this is all working out because we wore friends b4 we ever started to go out so i know what he is all about.........hes my life...... i love you babi

today i got my progress report in the mail from school n i said i got an MP in english an F in music and a D in math but o well its whatever i aint goin back to ccp next semester,,, so let them do what they want i cant drop out under ne circumstances because Nick said he will kill me cuz of dropin out. so im takin the semester off n ima have a major change from nursing to business :)

well ima talk to my babi....then head to bed im sleepy

~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~

song quote of the day:

gunit: smile

Yeah, this somethin special y'know, somethin epic
Lloyd Banks, you know
Cause a nigga thuggin don't mean he don't
Don't wanna see you smile baby

Wooo! I wanna be the reason you smile
I wanna be the reason you smi-ile
I wanna be the reason you smile
After you wipe away your tears and dry your eyes

I'm gettin the feelin you wanna take revenge
From the conversations we have and the way it ends
You wanna discuss me in front of your lady friends
That's why it's just me and my Mercedes Benz
It all depends, maybe if we make amends
We can start from scratch
Learn to control your temper and remarks in fact
We plan to be platonic with our hearts in tact
So everytime we seperate, somebody's marchin back
You're amazing in the sack
Eyes slanted like you're Asian, but you're black
God Bless whoever gave you alla that
If you seen her from the back
You'd understand why dis feel like that
And ain't a flaw to her toes, the Lord knows
Her pussy good enough to miss award shows
And I ain't gotta say nothin, she just knows
By the way I look at her to take off all her clothes
Up and down

Whenever I'm not around, and you feelin down
Let the thought of me be (I be the reason you smile)
I don't wanna see you frown, like them kids watch a clown
I wanna bring you joy and be (I be the reason you smile)
Baby, you know my style, you know how I get down
I provide by any means to be (I be the reason you smile)
We done been through ups and downs, had drama for a while
I'm just happy I'm around to be (I be the reason you smile)

The main reason I been lookin at you pitiful
What about the half of this shit I done did to you
Violated and took (?) into a crib or two
I've come clean to be a bigger individual
Even though you're busy boo, the evening's when I visit you
Kinda makes me feel lucky, cause I see niggaz
when you tease 'em with your physical
She wanna rack up her brooms, I ain't got no more room left
Wild drama, section 8 princess
My foreign chick bad, but she been stressed
Cause it's hard to communicate
Cause she don't speak-a no english
I been around the world from state to state
But now I'm back bustin in your bathroom
Got you laughin in your shower cap, let's get it on
Cause I'm leavin in a hour, fly-through, don't matter she's mad
Even when I holla back
All I really need your attention for a while
And, I bet you I can make you smile

Whenever I'm not around, and you feelin down
Let the thought of me be (I be the reason you smile)
I don't wanna see you frown, like them kids watch a clown
I wanna bring you joy and be (I be the reason you smile)
Baby, you know my style, you know how I get down
I provide by any means to be (I be the reason you smile)
We done been through ups and downs, had drama for a while
I'm just happy I'm around to be (I be the reason you smile)

Were fuked

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 15:49:42 GMT

With dick n bush back in office our country is fuked for 4 more years!!!!!!

I hate bush

i megan approve this message

yeah so were fuked for

4more years or 1460 days

Work tonight with my aunt and will

i miss chris

ima go

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song of the moment

ll cool j : hush

Hush baby, wanna let ya know
This is how its gonna go

Hush baby, wanna let ya know
This is how its gonna go
If u wanna come and play
Gotta do it my way
Hush baby, dont talk so much
Just wanna feel ya touch
Everything will be ok
If u do it my way (my way, my way)
Hush baby [echoes]

U feel so good
Rest of my life i wish i could
Hold u tight and take a flight out the hood
Was i foul or just misunderstood?
Mind-mannered or up to no-good
It really doesnt matter, either way i should
Maximize the moment and hold ya close
Jump in the drop spider and cruise down the coast
Who loved u the most?
I was never ghost
When lives was on the line
Confusion in ya mind
Runnin outta time
Drama of all kind
But theres faith in our mind
We spiritually inclined
Sometimes i flip
Sometimes u flip
Sometimes we wild out and act like lunatics
We movin too fast, the whole world's in a rush
Everybody just hush...

Hush baby, wanna let ya know
This is how its gonna go
If u wanna come and play
Gotta do it my way
Hush baby, dont talk so much
Just wanna feel ya touch
Everything will be ok
If u do it my way (my way, my way)
Hush baby [echoes]

Its all a test; the pain, the drama
The villa in the bahamas
The highs, the lows
The hoop-t, the Rolls
The money flowin
Certain doors that we go in
The people we meet, the hands that we shake
Whether its Mortans or Sizzla steak
But everything will be okay
[w/ 7 Aurelius] if we do it my way
Cuz i believe in romance
Kissin while ya slow dance
Me bouncin baby? no chance
No matter the circumstance
Whatever it takes gurl, ill swim to France
Cuz ya beauty's unmatched
Such a great catch
Unconditional love, forever we are attatched
Deal with the drama, we can find our way back
With or without the Maybach...

Hush baby, wanna let ya know
This is how its gonna go
If u wanna come and play
Gotta do it my way
Hush baby, dont talk so much
Just wanna feel ya touch
Everything will be ok
If u do it my way (my way, my way)
Hush baby [echoes]

I can feel ya pain
Like we simese twins connected by our brains
Walkin thru the desert in the ice cold rain
Want u in my life and nothins gonna change
God willin, we still be doin our thang
When my six-pack's faded
Raps outdated
But thats many years from now so dont rush
Little mama just hush...

Hush baby, wanna let ya know
This is how its gonna go
If u wanna come and play
Gotta do it my way
Hush baby, dont talk so much
Just wanna feel ya touch
Everything will be ok
If u do it my way (my way, my way)
Hush baby [echoes]

Hush baby
Hush hush darling
Hush baby hush hush
Dont talk so much
Wanna feel ya touch

Hush baby hush
Hush baby hush

Hush baby wanna let ya know...

I SURVIVED

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 16:15:56 GMT

Ahhh.... this weekend was brutal at work but i managed to survive it. but lemme start off with the good stuff

Friday- was an alright day in the beging... i got woken up at 8:45am by my dad... because the terminator n inspecter dude were gona be here by 9am or so to check out the casa...then i did some homework...then around 5:00pm i got dressed n showered n headed up to chris's house were we hung out untill 12:30am. and my lil cuz popped da question to him asking if he would go out with me and he said yes :). so we chilled out front of his house...then it was getting cold so we went n chilled in his room...nuttin happened if thats what ur thinkin....then my dad came to pick me up at lil after 1230...and i was remembered that it was chrissy's bday her 22. so i came home went over there for bout an hour or so...seen my godson... then when i walked in my house it was a lil after 2 i got on da computer to tell chris that i got home ight.... then 5 mins after i walk in the door my cellie rung and it was jimmy wanting to kno what i did dat night so i told him now he is mad at me n chris cuz were together... all because i am jimmy's ex but o well shyt happens life goes on. then i went to bed because i had class at 9am the next day then it was like 5 mins to 1am and my mom gets a call asking if i wanted to come into work because dennis called out and it was only my aunt and the trainie. but i would of if i didnt have class at 9am

Saturday- i got woken up early again because i had class at 9am...then after class i got a call saying my mother was in the er because she had a sever asmatha attack and turned blue cuz she was lacking oxygen... then i came home from the er and went to sleep because i had work that night but lemme tell ya i just wanted to die it was so stressful with only me n dennis workin 3rd shift. the time change and all suxed... so that means i had to work an extra hour n not get paid for it. within that hour we got bombed Dennis had to make like 200 sandwitches while i rang on register.... I just wanted to scream and i didnt get out of there until 8 yesterday morning then had to be back there at 1145pm to 730am but its all good cuz now im off until wednesday night and that means its PAY DAY.

Sunday: I came home from work around 10am and went right to bed because i was so tired. i even missed the eagles game but we still won and we r the only undefeated team in the nfl. 7 and fukin 0 i only woke up to eat lunch and dinner and the time chris called me. (( I miss him)). then i woke up around 10:30pm ((12 hours of sleep)). then it was off to the hell hole. and it was only me n jay schedurled. lemme tell ya how fun that was i got stuck in FUKIN DELI..... but it wasnt that bad because we werent busy so it was all good....i only hada make like 20 sandwitches compared to the 200 we hada make on saturday..jay and i were actually talking for the 1st time since we broke up... i was suprised that he said words to me...cuz i thought it was all gona be silence.

So now it is monday and i just got in from work at 9am on da dot how ironic is that./ and i aint even tired iam fully of energy. energy drinks do the trick.

so the day goes planned as follows....

do most of my english homework since i have confrencses tommorow at 645
go see my baby i havent seen him since friday and i miss him so much
do the rest of my homework
type bros project for school

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Song of the day:

Ginuwine: Differences

Oh, hey...
Oh, yeah, oh, yeah
To you
Mmm...mmm...mmm...
Oh, yeah, babe

My whole life has changed
Since you came in, I knew back then
You were that special one
I'm so in love, so deep in love

You make my love complete
You are so sweet, no one competes
Glad you came into my life
You blind me with your love, with you I have no sight

Girl, you open me, I'm wide open
And I'm doing things I never do
But I feel so good, I feel so good
Why it takes so long for me finding you

This is my story and I'm telling you
It's not fiction, it's surely a fact
Without you right here having my back
I really don't know just where I'd be at

My whole life has changed (My whole life has changed)
Since you came in, I knew back then (Ooh...oh...)
You were that special one (You were that)
I'm so in love, so deep in love

You make my love complete (You make, make my love
complete)
You are so sweet (Oh, oh), no one competes
Glad you came into my life (Ooh...)
You blind me with your love, with you I have no sight

I analyzed myself, I was buck wild
Never thought about settling down
But all the time I knew I was ready
But not with all my friends around

But girl, I put you first now (I put you first now)
You made me, helped mold me (Helped mold me, baby)
Turned me into a man, I'm so responsible
And I owe it all to you

My whole life has changed (My whole life has changed)
Since you came in, I knew back then (Oh, oh)
You were that special one (You were that special one)
I'm so in love, so deep in love (Oh, oh, oh....)

You make my love complete (You make my love complete)
You are so sweet, no one competes
Glad you came into my life (So glad you came in)
You blind me with your love (Blind me, baby), with you
I have no sight

{God has blessed me} God has blessed me, baby
Girl, He was good to me when He sent you
{I'm so happy, baby}
I'm so happy, I'm so happy, baby, oh, yes, baby
{Share my world} Come and share my world, baby,
oh...whoa...yeah. yeah
{I'm so in love} I'm so in love
I'm addicted to your love, baby, yeah...

My whole life has changed (Oh, yes, I am)
Since you came in, I knew back then (Ooh)
You were that special one (You were that very, very
special one)
I'm so in love (You were that very, very special one),
so deep in love

You make my love complete (You make my love complete)
You are so sweet (Yes, you did, baby), no one competes
(No one competes, oh)
Glad you came into my life
You blind me with your love (Come on), with you I have
no sight

My whole life has changed (My whole life has changed)
Since you came in, I knew back then (You made a
difference in my life)
You were that special one (I knew you were that
special one)
I'm so in love, so deep in love (When I first laid
eyes on you, babe)

You make my love complete (You make my love complete,
darlin')
You are so sweet, no one competes (No one competes,
baby)
Glad you came into my life (No one, no one)
You blind me with your love (No one), with you I have
no sight (Come on)

My whole life has changed (Oh...whoa...whoa...whoa...)
Since you came in, I knew back then

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<3Meg -n- Chris<3

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Im Goin Crazy- Crazie Crazy

:)

More time

wow

me n my boo

happy

what a night / mornin

sickness

weather

hehe

Life cant get ne better

:)

I love chris

*Just another day*

Were fuked

I SURVIVED

Just another day